The Heart’s Journey Home

In childhood we are wounded through no fault of our own.  It is the inevitable result of growing up.  Because of our wounds we develop a false self and fall into bondage.  We become separated, estranged from our original blessing, from the image of God within us, from our true selves.  As a result we feel lost, in exile, away from our true home.  We are held captive by false expectations and addictions, exploited by our culture.  We build our lives around accumulation, achievement and the constant need for human approval.

Our human condition needs liberation; it needs the healing and wholeness which is salvation. We need to make the journey home, to be brought back from exile.  We need to discover who we are in God; to be reconnected with our original identity, our belovedness.  This, in fact, is the primary purpose of religion.  It is certainly what the mission of Jesus was about.  Jesus sought to liberate people from their bondage to possessions, power and prestige; from seeking happiness in the wrong places.  He realised that people needed to be restored to their original blessing, their true selves.  He knew people needed to be helped to claim their belovedness. This is why his focus was on healing the wounds in the human heart that make us feel unworthy and inadequate.  It is why he constantly invited people to an inner transformation, to a dying to the false self and a rising to the true self.

The story of humanity as a whole and of every person as an individual can be found in the story Jesus told about the Prodigal (see Luke 15:11-32).  This is the story par excellence of our homecoming, of the journey our hearts need to make.  It is the story of a son whose search for happiness in accumulation, achievement and the approval of others ended in dissatisfaction, disappointment and eventual destitution.  It is the story of a man whose experience of falling and failing led him to realise that he was looking for happiness in the wrong places.  It is the story of a son who returned home with empty hands to find his father waiting for him with open hands.  It is the story of love experienced as gift, not achievement or requirements.  It is the story of a father, a prodigal father, whose unconditional love healed his son’s feelings of unworthiness and shame and reconnected him with his original blessing, his belovedness.  It is the universal story of what needs to happen in the life of every person if he or she is to experience healing and wholeness.

The Heart’s Journey Home

“You have made us for yourself, O God, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you.”  These are the often quoted words of St Augustine.  There is a longing in the human heart to come home.  It is a longing for God who is the fulfilment of our hearts’ desires. 

The longing in the human heart to come home is a longing to be held in the tender embrace of God, the Father of Jesus.  It is a longing to live in the Father’s house.  It is a longing for a room in the Father’s house, a room of our own where we can experience our belovedness, be ourselves and find peace.  Jesus knows the longing we have inside us.  This is why he tells us, “There are many rooms in my Father’s house.  I go now to prepare a place for you, and after I have gone and prepared you a place I shall return to take you with me; so that where I am you may be too” (John 14: 2-3).

The journey through life is the journey home.  But we cannot make the journey home alone; we are not meant to make the journey home alone.  We need the companionship of other people.  Without the companionship of other people we wither and die inside, emotionally and spiritually. The idea that the Christian journey is a private one is false thinking. Jesus gathered companions around him and so must we.  We go to God with and through other people. On the journey home we also need the companionship of Jesus.  Jesus walks the road of life with us.  He is the invisible companion of our life’s journey.  He helps us find our way home.  This is what Jesus means when he says, “I am the way, the truth and the life.  No one can come to the Father except through me” (John: 14:6).  To call Jesus our Saviour is to accept that we need his help and guidance to find our way home to the Father’s house.  The heart’s journey home is a journey best made in the company of Jesus.

A Fresh Start

Most of us are usually glad of an opportunity to make a fresh start, to have a new beginning.  The reason for this is not just because we are aware of our past mistakes and our failures.  It is also, I believe, because we have hopes that have not been realised and dreams that have not been fulfilled.

Every year on the first Sunday of Advent the Christian community makes a fresh start. It is the day the new church year begins.  Among the things the season of Advent invites us to do is dream.  It encourages us to imagine a better life for ourselves and for our world.  Throughout the four weeks of Advent there is a question that keeps recurring.  It is a question that is expressed in many different ways.  Perhaps the best way to put the question is this:  What is it we really long for?

Someone has said that there is a difference between what we long for and what we settle for.  During the season of Advent the focus is clearly on what we long for, not on what we settle for.  It can take us time to identify what it is we really long for.  We may also need help to name our longing.  The Advent season offers this help.  It suggests things that we might long for.  Here are some:

  • We long to be able to accept ourselves as we are.
  • We long for reconciliation with members of our families.
  • We long for someone who will love us unconditionally.
  • We long to be able to make a difference in the world.
  • We long for a personal relationship with God.
  • We long for the healing of a hurt we experienced in the past.

What we really long for may or may not be on this list.  If it is, let’s own it; if it is not, we should try to name what ours might be.  It is important for us to believe that Jesus wants what we want, what we really want.  In other words, the thing we most want for ourselves is the very same thing that Jesus wants for us.  After all no one knows the deepest longings in our hearts better than Jesus.